I Want This!
Yes this is my pic from the last show I did May 2009. I had plans on staying on track and going Pro in 2010. With the move and all of the transition I got a bit off track. I’ve even said to myself, do I really want to compete. YES I do! That is the negative nancy of my trying to get me down. I felt SO good up there! I do want this! BAD! So whats holding me back? WELL really nothing.
I did get some sad news yesterday.
My grandma is in the hospital. That is her with Lili when Lili was a couple of months old. My grandma lives out East so I can’t just hop on over anytime. She has been my inspiration my whole life. Shes been my mentor, my role model and like a mother to me. If it weren’t for her I have no clue where I would be today…not anywhere good. She has a liver condition and her stomach is starting to fill up with water and her body is shutting down, not disposing of the excess ammonia in her body causing a whole bunch of issues. Her 80th birthday is coming up this October. I talked to her yesterday and she begged me to come see her. So we are planning on a trip to PA in March. When I first heard about this I thought no way am I going to compete. But after sleeping and thinking about her all day…I am doing this FOR her! She is a strong woman! Moved here from Italy when she was 17 not knowing how to read or speak english. She learned that ALL by herself! She got a job, learned to drive, bought a house, and raised 3 children. She is an amazing woman with strength I can only wish to have. So for her I am going to find that strength she taught me and do this for her.
I love you grandma! See you soon!