SHIT happens
Pardon my language but it does. I had a photographer contact me the other day asking to do a photoshoot. I thought perfect. Just what I need to get myself out of this slump and back into training again. When I told him I would be interested in doing one after the new year, he became the biggest jerk! Said that was too far out and why even have a page (on model mayhem) blah blah blah. Well jerk photographer, shit happens and some of us lose track. Me being one of them. Im not perfect. With my back going out from over training and that putting me out for a couple of months to all that is going on in my personal life, I lost track. I lost the excitement I once had for working out. I forgot why I was doing it…for ME and my health. I started to feel guilty for my love and passion for fitness and training. So I took a step back. Do you think that made me feel any better?? NOPE. As a matter of fact it made me feel worse. Yep, lost my beloved muscle and gained fat. Now Im no where near where I was…my training this past year has been sporadic but it wasn’t completely inexistant. Thank goodness. When you lose sight of what you love and love to do, it can affect you in so many ways, negatively.
So here I am. Gaining sight of who I am and getting to where I want to be.
